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Thursday, 02 July 2009

  • Lifetimes later....

    For awhile I put off writing on here because, well, life happens.  But, honestly, the last 4-6 months have been out of sheer embarrassment that it had been so long and had no idea how to start writing on here again.  What is there to say that would be that monumental?  Well, nothing that big has happened; life has continued in its normal course.

    So here I am.  To sum up my life: last year was very difficult.  I suffered from a really weak immune system and was getting sick every three weeks on average--even got shingles!  I was also exhausted and just generally worn out.  Because of this, I got over-medicated and at one point was taking four prescription drugs at the same time, which made me feel even worse.  And, then I discovered on my own that what I really had was a vitamin deficiency and once I dropped the drugs and took a good multi-vitamin, I was fine.  The upside of all this, is I've really been pro-active about my own health and have really gotten into eating really nutritionally dense food (like the roasted beet and kale salad I made the other day).  But, the whole thing has made me a bit wary of our medical system. I wish there was more of a balance between natural medicine and scientific medicine.

    Other than that, things are good.  We are half-way through remodeling our kitchen.  Whew!  (We got an Aga stove, with 6 gas burners and 4 electric smallerish ovens--it's amazing and will be really nice for retreats--and it's green and cute!) The garden, after being cleaned up yesterday (stupid grass patch!), looks decent.  So far we've grown lettuce, peas, swiss chard, rhubarb, asparagus, and tomatoes.  In a few weeks, I'll plant brussels sprouts.  I also planted red currant bushes and maybe this Saturday will get plants for divine black raspberry plants.  Blueberries are ripening like crazy on our bushes.  I still love cooking and am most proud when 90% of our meal comes from local ingredients.  I've been knitting like crazy too.  Apparently every one I know got knocked up this year, so there's a whole list of baby sweaters to be made.  Fortunately, baby sweaters are kind of instant-gratification.  Quickly a pile of yarn turns into a real-live sweater.  And someday a cute little baby will be wearing it--that part is fun too!

    We're up almost up to the 1960's in our history of film thing we've been doing.  Alfred Hitchcock is amazing, but then, you probably already knew that.

    Most of all, in the last week or so, I've been meditating on D.H. Lawrence's A Propos to Lady Chatterley's Lover (kind of like an introduction to the work).  I can't get over his words on sacraments.  It's about 20 pages, and you can read it apart from the book.  It is amazing.  Sometimes I need remindes to reflect on holiness.  But slowly, it is becoming a part of the hours, days, seasons.  It is June and everything is just so alive and I can't help but marvel at how amazing that is.  It doesn't quite matter where we are, there is no getting away from these cosmic rhythems of time and we all experience them together.  I like that.  Somehow, it makes God and the Body feel that much nearer.

    Currently
    Lady Chatterley's Lover
    By D. H. Lawrence
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Wednesday, 20 August 2008

  • No man is an island (the midwestern version)

    I have been thinking a lot lately about what it means to live in the midwest.  When I first moved here, I didn't pay a whole lot of attention to road signs, but as I've been driving to Louisville fairly often lately, they have caught my attention.  Signs to Lexington, Cincinnati, St. Louis.  St. Louis?  Honestly, I have no idea how far away St. Louis is, but where I used to live (Pennsylvania) it was eternally far away.  And these cities are our landmarkers?  I grew up with signs to Baltimore, Washington, DC, Philadelphia, New York.   Cincinnati seems like a pithy place compared to Philadelphia.  Midwestern cities are so odd to drive towards as well.  They seem to spring up in the middle of cornfields.  Houses dot the plain and then, boom, there's a city.  But not a city by northeastern standards.  They are not old or stately or even gritty.  I don't know them well enough to explain them adequately, but they are different.  These cities also do not rest on coastlines.  Some form at a meeting place for rivers, but others are even more isolated. 

    It is strange to live so far from any ocean.  This changes the way you view your home, land, and those around you.  I think it even effects the way you think of God.  I haven't placed my finger on it yet, but here in the middle, things are different. 

    Yet surrounded by all this land, things are isolated.  People are more self-reliant and internalized than back east.  Less social, more familial.  It may be true that no man is an island, but those who live in the middle part of this island have driven themselves far away from the central social zones of a country.

    I hope I haven't put this in seemingly negative terms.  I don't mean it like that.  I am just amazed that there is so much and so little that binds us as a country.  The things that bind us, although not completely, these are regional too: name brands, governmental systems, language, social movements, and cultural concepts such as freedom.  So, we can traverse this country and on the surface everything is familiar, but the more time you spend in a place, you realize it's completely different than the last.

    One social movement that seems to be sweeping the nation (slowly) is the local food movement.  It appears that this existed here in Indiana long before it was written about in books and magazines.  Just about every back road here begins with a large handwritten sign advertising produce from one of the locals residing in the direction the arrow takes you.  Travel through the maze of roads aimlessly and you will stumble across zucchini, peaches, cantaloupe, tomatoes, maple syrup, eggs and home-made baskets.  The road not taken could keep you from an enviable smorgasborg. I have yet been brave enough to knock at anyone's door to buy something.  Not that this exactly takes bravery, but I do feel shy when thinking about the concept of just visiting a stranger at their home.  Fortunately, our local co-op and farmer's market carries many of these wares--and more.  Our farmer's market keeps growing exponetially; it currently has 65 different vendors, which is truly amazing, since it is held in a town of 5,000 people and a tiny county of 20,000 in the middle of truly nowhere. 

    We have therefore been feasting.  I can't get enough of tomatoes.  I could just survive on a diet of fresh salsa alone.  Just the thought of those tomatoes, cilantro, limes, peppers.....my mouth is watering now.  Tonight's dinner consists of local: eggs, French bread, orange and red tomatoes, basil, oregano, thyme, green peppers, garlic, eggplant, zucchini.  It's going to turn out to be vegetable torte (chocolate tortes are MUCH better, I know, but this will do) and buschetta. I was thinking about throwing in a local wine, for good measure, but we also have this Spanish white wine and I don't want to have local overkill, right?

    While I am speaking about local food, I must face the facts of this location.  As I mentioned above, we are obviously far from any ocean.  I have a friend moving to Florida and we went on www.localharvest.org to check out what kind of local produce and such she has in her new home.  I shouldn't have looked because I became jealous almost immediately.  My farmer's market is pretty good, but hers is going to sell freshly caught local seafood.  I think I may need to visit!

    Currently Watching
    A Streetcar Named Desire (Two-Disc Special Edition)
    By Vivien Leigh, Marlon Brando, Kim Hunter, Karl Malden, Rudy Bond
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Thursday, 31 July 2008

  • I find interpretation interesting.  Everything we get outside of personal experience is interpreted for us, and all things including person experience we end up interpreting then for ourselves through out own lens of experiences and beliefs.  And that leads to interesting perspectives; some good and some bad.

    Case in point:  Today on Google News the first article up is entitled "Exxon Profit Rises Less Than Estimated; Output Drops" and the Bloomberg article goes on to explain just what a difficult bind Exxon is in economically speaking and the outside factors effecting this.  The article fails to mention what these stories mention on the front page of their site:

    BBC Americas: Another Record Profit for Exxon

    CNNMoney:
    Exxon posts record $11.68 billion profit: World's largest publicly traded oil firm makes $1,485.55 a second in the quarter, but misses forecasts.

    NY Times: 
    Rising Oil Prices Swell Profits at Exxon and Shell

    Which leads me to believe that Exxon really isn't facing any sort of economic disaster.  To have record profits in a very sluggish economy counts for something, right? (On a side note, doesn't this news make you a tad bit angry or some other kind of emotion?)

    So, interpretation takes place all the time.  I mean, even with four gospels, we're still not sure of how things happened.  I am content with that though--it makes it a bit more interesting.
    Currently Reading
    Many Things Have Happened Since He Died and Here Are the Highlights
    By Elizabeth Dewberry Vaughn
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Tuesday, 29 July 2008

  • Half-hearted New Interests

    Last summer we had a drought.  Everything turned to dusty straw.  I drank copious amounts of water to attempt to overcome the heat.  And I thought global warming had doomed us to hell.  The last part still has time to come to fruition (why, oh, why did I choose last summer of all times to watch Al Gore's film--it felt so apocolyptic when everything around mestarted dying).  We had a cool, wet spring this year that everyone but me complained about.  I hate cold and hot, so give me cool or warm any day.  Currently, we are on the brink of August and the weather is still lovely.  We've had the heat and humidity, but we've also had our share of just absolutely perfect days weather-wise.

    With the summer comes fruit.  Vegetables come also, but who cares about them when there are peaches around?  I bought lots of extra peaches and blanched them, put them in a honey/water syrup, and froze them in single servings for my morning oatmeal come December.  My friend Abbey gave me a heart-shaped silicon cup-cake pan  as a present that is perfect for freezing things in; said frozen objects slip right out.  Plus, they are super cute, as much as that counts for frozen fruit.  They might even make me smile before having coffee in the dusky, dead of winter mornings.


    Peaches frozen into hearts.  Who doesn't want that?

    I also hate to admit it, but last night I blanched broccoli and corn and then froze them (separately).  It was kind of scary reminder of growing up and canning/freezing/picking ALL summer.  I hated it.  This time, though, someone else grew and picked it.  And, it was only one bag each.  Which isn't to say that I won't become obsessive about it some day, but, afterall, I do have a doctorate to finish and the frozen food section at the store works quite well.




    Knitted handiwork and a pose/expression that I can't even begin to understand.


    I have now officially learned to read and knit at the same time.  Which means I could embrace funny old lady habits of taking knitting everywhere I go and clicking my needles in public places.  For now, no, though.  Above is a shirt I knit and I like it an awful lot.  I'm thinking of vowing to not buy new clothes ever again and just do thrift stores and do it yourself type things.  Probably the vow won't happen, but I could follow the spirit of the law or something.  Sometimes I think that each season's trends are really a man-made phenemonon to force us to be more consumeristic and I completely buy into it way to much, even though I live in an unpopulated midwest area that is probably five years (at least) behind NYC.   Maybe the current economy might teach us as a culture not to buy so much stuff.
    Currently Reading
    Robert Elsmere
    By Mary Agusta Ward (Mrs. Humphry Ward)
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Monday, 14 July 2008

  • Last week I experienced severe neck pain and had to read lying down with my arms up in the air holding my gigantic Oxford  Handbook to English Literature and Theology.  I was also cold all week, which is kind of unusual, particularly for me, in July.  I would sleep with three covers.  Then, I got a fever of 102.  In between all of this, I managed to almost burn the house down TWICE.  The first time, I was roasting pork in the toaster oven.  And before you laugh, the night before I had baked goat's cheese phyllo triangles and they turned out fine.  This time there was flames.  Brad, being the good husband he is, didn't ask any questions when he smelled a burning scent while I was cooking.  You don't ask your wife such things while making your dinner.  The second time involved a steak knife with a plastic handle that was touching the heating implement in the dishwasher during the dry cycle.  Our kitchen smelled like smoldering plastic for hours.  But, I managed to read seven books last week, nonetheless (all two hundred pages or more, in case you thought I was counting Dr. Seues).  I wonder if you made a chart depicting how awful life is to the number of books that I'm reading that you would deduce that catastrophes=good study habits. 

    I was going to write something (maybe) profound about idealism and theology and being a woman and the book below, but somehow it seemed more pertainent to mention the fever and fires and fury life seemed to be taking on me last week.  Idealism means that tomorrow is another day.  I'll start there, I guess.

    Currently Reading
    The Handmaid's Tale (Everyman's Library)
    By Margaret Atwood
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  • God is behind everything, but everything hides God. Things are black, creatures are opaque. To love a human being, is to render her transparent. Certain thoughts are prayers. There are moments when, whatever the attitude of the body, the soul is on its knees...Whoever we may be, we all have our living, breathing beings. If they fail us, the air fails us, we stifle, then we die. To die for lack of love is horrible. The asphyxia of the soul....What a great thing, to be loved! What a greater thing still, to love! The heart becomes heroic through passion. It is no longer composed of anything but what is pure; it no longer rests on anything but what is elevated and great... If no one loved, the sun would go out. - from "Les Miserables", by Victor Hugo, Marius, Book 5, Chapter 4